Right now - 22 August 2010

The loneliest and hardest moments are when you realise just who you are; Where you come from, and what you have to offer.

R.I.P. - 14th July 2010

Death should have no space.
No room to be. To carry its motion.
It shouldn't hold place aside for loved ones.
Why do we allow it to construct,
Give it chance to take us whole.
Who gave it permission.
Who gave it this chance.
It can lye beside ME,
Making its mark and feeding all the while.

but leave them be.

Porcelain Princess - 8th June 2010

Beat me.
Hit me.
Show me how
pretty I can be.

Shout at me.
Tell me true.
Am I really
worthy of you.

Touch me.
Rape me.
Show me just
what I'm worth.

Get drunk.
Get high.
Get to slap me
around on the fly.

On the floor.
I cannot lie.
On the floor.
I sleep so perfect.
My porcelain skin,
it won't crack today.

Nothing, as the same. - 29th May 2010 (The Wombats-Moving to New York)

I've just had the craziest of nights,
It took me all around this place.
With nothing the same,
Yet every step taken.
How do you find yourself asleep,
With the world out there buzzin'.
So I decided to run this place
cus I've got problems with myself.
Problems with myself.

We'll take this place.
We take every moment.
And I'll catch you in my camera.
---
Take you away with me.
Me away from you.
Yeah, we'll run this place together.

So, I've just got off the phone,
and he told me not to worry.
He told me it'd all be ok.
Yet every step I take
Every second I am
Just feels the same as before.
So I'm leaving this place,
Leaving you all alone.
I'm going to run this life myself.

So lets take this place.
Lets take every minute.
Capture it all in your pictures.
---
I'll take it all with me.
Run your world from afar.
Yeah, why can't we just escape.

The craziest of nights,
Walking all around this place.
Yet nothing's the same.
I don't know why I walked and I ran
this maze you made for us.
With the world outside still buzzin'.
I find myself still runnin',
This damn maze you've made.
This maze you made for us.
Just now I'm by myself.

SFP - 22nd May 2010

Sinking feeling.
Diving solution.
You've got to swallow it,
Take it with a hard heart.
Keep it safe, lavish yourself
with stimulus.
Try confuse the situation.
Begin to lie to yourself,
All the while try and be
the same person you always were-
Fake.

Poisonous to your ears,
She'll eat you.
Like a vemon she'll creep.
Climb up on you.

The Narcissist Within Our Misanthrope Class - 31st March 2010

I'm confused by (read: confined to) an open state of mind:
To be a narcissistic misanthrope, and for it to cause any issue.

Surely in its true entirety there cannot be a problem. The problem comes from being aware of other opinions, and wanting to fit in or be recognised. Which objectifies your belief in being self-loving, egotistical and also, in mistrusting other persons. With a hatred possibly growing given further thought to those around.

Proof a misanthrope is also [naturally] a narcissist:
In a line of ideas then- To have such distaste, mistrust; At times overwhelming contempt. One might perhaps view themselves as an opposite. As the class of misanthrope does not necessitate self-loathing. In such cases, to be greater than your other worldly men, you cannot deny a certain self-belief, conceit, vanity.

To paraphrase Aristotle: 'the misanthrope, as an essentially solitary man, is not a man at all: he must be a beast or a god.'

beast of a god :: god of beasts

Back to how I began, on being a narcissistic misanthrope and it possibly causing issue. I change this to 'A misanthrope is to have no troubles with oneself: Easier living.' Unless one misanthrope is also ostentatious.
It would just be the outside other's need to prevail, introduce the image of superiority in their own mind. An ambition not to be slighted, it should be noted!

Of an ostentatious misanthrope:
Where might there lay a true romantic. Surely not caught inside a self inflicted barrier of generalised disgust at humankind?

Freezing - 31st March 2010

I don't believe in warmth.
Everything is frozen.
It's a hidden parallel,

[Caught in a twirling divide.]

Heat is just your movement,
So lets stand still.
Wait for the freeze
to help us feel alive.

Now I can't believe in living warm.
I find help in living cold.
I find trust in something so still.
A complete freedom in you.

I cannot hurt here.
You couldn't hate me either.

Keep the people at a distance.
I dislike what they'll see of me.
So still.
Not believing in the warmth..